Pour

It’s like this: a girl comes
and sits next to you,
flashes her teeth like a lioness.

You give her a glass from your heart

The first drink and we’re all smiles,
you’re unsure.  This all seems
familiar
she asks for another. You pour another.

She’s a little drunk and
you’re a little drained
running out of tricks,
anemic in your plays

The third drink does it,
she’s giving you the eyes
that say ‘come back to me,
pour yourself in mine’

by the hand we go
facing sunrises with trepidation
into cheap hotels
without reservations

clothes slip off
well-oiled by your tongue
and your heart becomes
a little more undone

in morning facing dawnlight
she begins to see
received all you could give her
she begins to leave

Before you can start
to talk of love (and the part
from which she drank so heavily)
she’s gone, you’re naked—now

 

Empty

a parody of masculine lamentations

here we sit in coffee shops and bars
wondering anxiously before the masses
order from the crowd: grande latte soy less
for me my friend. i have heard the stories
about the estrogen that’s running rampant
killing off mens ambition; men turned boys
the fall of the irreparable hearts
who’s “once upon a time’s” inspired in us
greatness, now hides behind the tired men’s faces
limping along with absent minds; yearning
for days in which the young were great and proud
but now we live our lives this sadder way
a lowercased and banal life; sadly watching
clocks for the moments that we free our self’s
and settle in the comforts of our mess,
looking for our heroes, but we are blind.

neurotic

once more, into madness

and sadness

and worry and fury.

into one’s mind

into one’s self

 

once more filled with doubt

and doubting

and hurting

though no one hurt you and

though no one has said a word

 

again, again, again

and turned once more over

inside your head.  Again, again

my fingers are cold

when I’m thinking of you

because when I’m with you, there’s no time for thinking

 

will I see you again, in the same way as last night?

will you be gone forever, just a specter of memory?

did I pull too tight? say too much?

think too far? hold?  dream?

me?

 

was it me?

Was it me?

 

once more, into madness…

walter scott john adam’s reveries of a familiar kind

i’ve been lonely.
and I don’t blame you for this
its a certain kind of lonliness
that builds up slowly

it’s been a while
since I’ve been able to be free
in the ways that love let’s you be
talkative with smiles

i have just found
that its when we are most willing
to share our little thoughts, giving
heart sprouts fertile ground

that we lose fear,
to come out of our corners
where pressed noses and floors
drenched now with our tears

Have kept us hidden all these years
From ones who love with open ears

the artificial intelligence of the future will know how to love more than we ever will

i find it hard to focus with you wedged

in my mind so, i looked and searched online,

i took some quizzes, tried to find reasons

we don’t talk anymore.  i don’t want to

be needy, all of this could be resolved

with three lines, a few, ‘hey, it’s not you it’s

me, i just don’t love you that way’.  it hurts

only a minute; day, a year. lifetimes.